Very often, I think of how things have come into my life and trace them back to moments that I cannot believe I was apart of. Seek to Serve is a prayer that I sing almost daily. It grounds me and reminds me how simple life should be. The song came into my life at a priest ordination Mass in my early 20's. Why was there? My friend Alan was a part of a choir from Los Angeles that sang for Catholic Masses and concerts. They sang for Pope John Paul II when he visited World Youth Day in Colorado. Alan invited me to an open try out. Alan and I took a voice class at East L.A. college together and went to crazy auditions that were way above our abilities. Even so, Alan and I just did things like that. Why not? So, I auditioned and probably because their director was on sabbatical and the fill in was very kind, I got in. I only participated for a season and was never a soloist or anything like that so don't get any ideas like I have these amazing pipes. I just love to sing. My kids love to sing. (They actually have beautiful voices and one of them has an amazing ear.) When I think of how I had the courage to audition for this choir, I have to smile and shake my head. I have done some kooky things. I do things because they feel right even if I'm afraid. If I over think things, I chicken out. I convince myself why I shouldn't. Of course, as a teen and young adult, I had to learn many things the hard way and start listening to my spidey sense when I should not just do something for the hell of it. I took any job for the experience. I've answered phones at KISS FM and I've worked as an Athletic Director. I will learn anything and everything. They are all experiences. When I fail, I learn the most. It usually wasn't a fail, just that I needed more experience. So, I get out of my comfort zone, not really because I am courageous, but because I know afterwards, I will have grown tremendously. So I am going to share with you me singing Seek to Serve. I recorded it this morning, just before dropping off my son, Lucas to school. Of course, I can tear it apart and go on and on about my voice placement being all over the place etc. I decided not to rerecord it. It is how I sing. It is how God hears me sing. It is my prayer. If is what makes me feel right. You can hear Lucas call me at the end. How perfect. How can I record over that! I am sharing this even though I should be embarrassed, but I'm not. I don't mind the judgement. We are all being judged, all the time. But our worst critic, is ourselves. Get out of your comfort zone. Be Alive! Vigilio!
May I live in the world
As one who always seeks to serve
May I live, as one who knows the love of God.
Lord, teach me how to live, and how to serve.
With my ears may I hear, with my eyes may I see,
With my lips may I speak, may your word be heard through me.
Thus, as I live each day, may love sustain the will to SERVE.